Men who finally broke down and considered therapy, how did you go about it?

I am actually, finally considering talking to someone, which is not like me and an extremely uncomfortable thought in and of itself. I figure I try it now because if I don’t make some sort of change soon, I probably won’t be here much longer lol

Where did you go to find a therapist? How much are they? How do you deal with the extreme feelings of shame? (i feel it even now just asking for anonymous advice on the subject) Did you go through insurance??? How to tell if therapy worked, and what did they tell you?

I have never believed in meds or “talking” shit out, but at this point I feel like I am all full to the brim of twisted up feelings and I really just need to spill it